Miscellaneous

Voiceless Diva

1:48 AM


I'm sorry, but I just have to post this for shits and giggles. ROTFLTIDMS

Rolling On The Floor Laughing Till I Dropped My Sombrero.
Miscellaneous

After a Hiatus and Maybe More

1:46 PM
It's been a month and more that I wrote anything here. Well, having insufficient internet connections is a major problem. Adding in all the activities in between like moving houses, having holidays, and preparing for my last battle with the monsters of my university, it's been a life changing time this year for me.

But today, this post here is dedicated to my dad. It's Father's Day this weekend, just in case you've forgotten.

Now, about my dad. My dad is now approaching his 50's, but you'll be surprised if you compare his photographs when he was in his 20's and now. He barely changed at all, except for a few creases on his forehead. 

He's a mechanic and very loyal with his job for about 22 years and counting. Dark, rugged and handsome, he has similar features to David Gandy, but has a squarish face instead and not as tall. A very distinctive feature is his dark and thick eyebrows that frames his chiseled face. Add a tanned complexion overall due to his nature of work and that's my dad. 

Unfortunately, I'm nowhere near his chiseled good looks or have his sun-kissed complexion. The only feature that I inherited from him is his high cheekbones and forehead. But I'm not going to elaborate further about me. 

With a face like that (also a body to match), it's not surprising that he has bachelorettes lining up all the way from Penang. That's what my mother said. "You know there's this girl who came all the way from Penang, wanting to find him?" It couldn't be further from the truth.

About his personality, he's actually quite an extroverted person during his younger days. He even has this disco outfit tailor made that he wore every Saturday night. My grandma still keeps that outfit. LOL. 24 years of marriage has mellowed him into a loving person, with a more gentler side at times despite his rugged looks.

I think I've repeated this story here before, but I'll do it anyway. When I first came out to my parents, my mum was distressed and she thinks that I am somewhat blaming her when I said "I was born this way". Then my dad explained mum's situation to me and I tried hard to explain and make them understand that this is not what I meant. All this happened on the phone, through sms and calls. Bad timing, I know.

But at last, my dad sent me an sms saying no matter who I'll be, I'll always be their son and they love me very much. That sms sent me soaring to the heavens knowing that my dad can accept who I truly am. I cried a little and felt that I was truly blessed to have a dad like him. 

In his eyes, my brothers and me are his most precious ones. He loves us very much, giving it unconditionally. And I love you too, dad. 

Happy Father's Day.   

P/S: I don't know when I'll have the chance to post again, so it may be quite some time before I resume my normal timing. Tata for now. :)
Miscellaneous

2 Years

3:42 AM
I think it's going to be a trend now to blog about how we, the blog writers, came to be writing this blog of ours till today. LOL

Thank you to Mr Tuls and Mr Leonut for inspiring this post here. I can sometimes suffer mental blocks, for there is really nothing that I want to pen down, but still this heart says that I need to write a paragraph or two.

So my blog here started on 3rd May 2010, so officially it's now 2 years. 2 years of pouring out my thoughts from that time until now. Speaking of which, when I look back at all my posts, I do feel that I've changed. Some parts that is, which is mostly about how to handle what we call as "love".

From that time, I've changed three blog banners, posted a number of bear pics, bought incredibly expensive swimwear (which I still have no courage to wear), writing down my heartbreaks in the early stages of my blog, and in this whole jumbled up mess, found a boyfriend.

Who inspired me to start this? Here I need to thank Mr Calvin. My email here is also inspired by his blog url. I found out about his blog when I started to realise that I am what I am now, and that's when the adventure starts. At that time I was subscribing Calvin's weekly emails of literoticas, which I still keep until now.

Another person that inspired (or should I say provoked?) me to start this is my ex-crush and friend, Raeb. Sometimes I do wonder if at that point of time, if Raeb was having a more open heart, I wouldn't be growing up from experiencing a heartbreak. But we still keep contact with each other. Maybe it's much easier to do so when it's only one hand clapping and not two.  

And one day, when I thought I want to keep this blog under the radar, I saw my blog on Calvin's blog list. That really perked up my day. Also, I think it's around that time when the bear posts start to appear. My love for hairy, muscled man is not ending soon. Hehe...

2 years it is. Happy Belated Anniversary, my blog.

Sincerely from The Anonymous Gay Department.

P/S: Why I named my blog as The Anonymous Gay Department? Because I wanted this blog to be under the radar at first. The second reason is it's work related. You have no idea how many closeted gays there are in my department. It's all a very big open secret. Hush!